"Just be patient"

Today I was told--by my doctor's office--to "just be patient."

"Just be patient."

Okay. I'll do that. I will be patient.

I will be patient while I watch my symptoms come back and I can't do anything to stop them.

I will be patient while I put more and more medicine into my body, just to pass the time until I can get the treatment that I really need.

I will be patient while I have to put the fate of my own body in other people's hands.

I will be patient while the inside of my body is slowly, and sometimes not so slowly, being taken over.

I will be patient while my life is on someone else's timeline.

I will be patient while my life continues by me without me in it.

Okay. It's fine. I'll be patient.